November First

Well folks, Halloween in quarantine has come and gone. I spent a good part of the day taking down bats and cobwebs, rolling up banners, and cleaning all our Halloween textiles. 

This was not the Halloween I expected in January. Hell, in January I hadn’t thought of Halloween at all. My only focus was how much longer winter break would be so that my son would be back to school. Little did I know that come March he would be home every single day for school. 

Admittedly I went a little overboard with Halloween this year. We don’t make a big deal out of Easter(so it in quarantine was fine. Plus I thought it would be the only holiday we missed) Then birthdays were understated, the Fourth of July came and went, and now the holiday I most associate with childhood would not be the same.

I put up more decorations than I normally do and had far more art projects for the kids to partake in. We watched more Halloween movies than we ordinarily would and ate WAY too much candy. 

Because we did not trick or treat we opted for a fun backyard movie. The kids stayed up late, ate tons of popcorn and even got to hang out with their newly covid-ed tested grandparents. They had not been able to really have fun with them like they did PC(Pre Covid). It was definitely a treat for them.

But now that Halloween is over and we are in November I am beginning to think about the upcoming holidays and what they will look like. Surely they will not be like the would any other year we have had previously and my mind races with questions.

Will it just be the four of us?

Will we make food to share and do drop offs to our local family?

Will we have a very small get together with limited family?

And that’s just Thanksgiving. Our family in recent years have given up multiple gifts for a white elephant game or book swaps but the interaction will be greatly missed as it has been for 7+ months. Only time will tell how all of this will play out but I’m determined to make the most of it.

Last year we experienced a family tragedy just before Thanksgiving that caused a whirlwind of fear and anxiety in Mike and more so myself. I was not up to my normal “standards” of the holiday season. The depression and anxiety took hold of me so greatly that I could hardly bring myself to decorate our tree and I can only hope that this year will be better. 

All of these thoughts also coincide with the upcoming election. I am living in fear that we will have four more years of oppression. However, if the candidate I voted for prevails, it will be a start to a more cheerful holiday season.

If you have thoughts on how you are planning to celebrate, please do not hesitate to share in the comments!